Assalamualaikum.

So, guys, I woke up today and it just been like 3 days out of 365 days of 2017 and I felt really stressed because I got a lot of things to be done and it is like 2 months away before my final.

To all of you guys that didnt know, Im a college student in Malaysia (Im Malaysian btw), and this is my second semester.

Happy New Year to all and I wish this new year can make me more determine about blogging because I really like writing, just sometimes I lost motivation and start to forget about my blog.

To my mom,

Happy birthday !! I cant believe she is 41 years this year because she always looks the same since 19 years ago (the year I was born).

I hope she have a blessful birthday, Im sorry I cant be there because since my college is 63 km away from home. I did a lot of wrong things to her and I grown out as a rebel kid but she always be there for me. I know she loves me a lot eventhough I lost count actually on how many times I got hit (asian parents), HAHA, I want her to know that I always be there for her no matter what happened.

Im sorry, Im not what she wants me to be, because I aint a brillaint kid like other people's children, but here I am, still studying calculus, just so that I can prove to her that I CAN !

I think thats all, maybe I'll save the rest of the speech for her next birthday !

I LOVE YOU IBU (MOM) !

Bye.

 

I've just came back from One Segamat (aka OS which is the only shopping mall in Segamat, Johor which is where Im from) 😁

And

I bumped into someone that was familiar to me. And his eyes met mine (sounds way too dramatic) and I don't know why my brain won't work at that time. After a minute I just realised that was my teacher, lets just call him 'Cikgu Z' ok because it is weird to called him 'my' teacher, when I was in primary school. We were in opposite direction and both taking an elevater. Means that he's going down and Im going up.

I went with my lil bro. And I was like

"Izzat, cikgu kau ! Cikgu kau ! "

Because my lil bro went to the same school as mine so of course he knew and my lil bro was just smiling.

And I was looking at Cikgu Z and he was all smiling ok he's even look at us (but my lil bro said he's looking at me, heheh!)

I felt rude for not saying anything but to be honest, I agreed that he still looks good after all this year and he managed to look the same. The first time I saw him was when I was 7 years old and that was 11 years ago and he also got a daughter the same age as mine. Plus, we went into the same highschool.

And always saw him sent his daughter because I lived near the school. Im not going to be creepy here ok since flirting with your own teacher sounds disgusting to be. And he's married. I don't have feeling or what so ever.

I also liked this one teacher that teached me in Bahasa Arab when I was in highschool but that doesn't mean I want to marry him or what. It just that he's so funny and cool and when I like him, thats make me want to perform more in exam. But I can't. Because Im just suck in learning Bahasa.

So, the point here is that, Im just suprised because Cikgu Z was one of teacher when I was in primary school and I even finished my highschool so that  was just amazing that he still remembered me. I think he teached me Music when I was 7 years old. And he was so fierce and always had an angry face so it took me a minute to realised that he was smiling. HAHA!

Btw, thanks Cikgu for everything, eventhough I quit my guitar lesson on the second month. Im just not good at music except singing. Well, at least 'I' think Im good at it.

Not only to Cikgu Z but to all the teachers.

Even I cant say that Im success yet !

Bye.

So, this is my second time having fever while im in a university. I think because I travel a lot in the past 2 days and yesterday I joined a 9km walk with my mum and little brother.

And I told my mum that Im sick. And then my mum called me to ask if I take a medicine or not. I dont really know what to say to my mum and after she off-ed the phone, I cried a lot. And I got like a month left before my semester break, but the time Im sick, I became so sensitive 😭😭

Im still crying while I typing this post and I just want to go home. Im the type of person that is very close with my family. I've already take the medicine and I just want to sleep and hoping that tomorrow I will feel better.

I dont know how other people can survive their university year, I mean, being away from their family and one of my classmate during high school year even went to Jordan to pursue her study 🤔

Thats all bye

Assalamualaikum.

I was gonna stop blogging actually since I don't really feel it anymore but since a lot of my friends were asking me about this blog and I guess my birthday will be a good reason for me to start again.

I already started my first semester in a university last 2 months and I guess it is not as easy as people kept raving about uni life. I mean, its not easy at all ! There are a lot of assignment, a lot of test and quiz and I'm totally broke and there will always people who better than you.

I'm not a competitive person when I was in high school, I mean, I don't really care about grades and homework. But now, I can't be that old me anymore !

I'm suddenly missing my friends and teachers 😞

I still remember the day I got my SPM result, the first person I message was Ustaz Zaki, the one that convinced me that I can do it for my Pendidikan Syariah Islamiah paper that I got B+ instead, and I said

I'm sorry.

I got 22/45 for my Math Tech Test 1. And I'm so happy since I'm not good at math and of course additional maths since I was in Form 4. I played a lot in high school so HAHAHA SHAME ON ME.

But ya, what past is past. I'm not going to let the regret gets me since I really want to success in whatever I'm going to do now and I'm not going to let my families, friends and teachers down. AGAIN💪🏽

I took 11 subjects for my SPM paper and this semester I'm only study for 4 subjects so please my dear self...

YOU CAN DO IT !💪🏽

I'm not going to share about the boy in my class who got 44/45 for maths(Im already like him before knew he's gonna be this good)-and shy-sometimes too much-wears spectacles-and-looks kind-and-replied to my not so funny messages-and

caught my heart.

ahem.

but

he's already taken.

so

bye.

 

So, yesterday I went to H&M because my little brother wanted to try the men's cardigan on. The thing is, it was too funny for me because my little brother is skinny and the cardigan made him look like a girl 😂😂

As we laugh so much, I saw this man, wearing navy pants and white shirt, looking at us and I was like, haa not my type. But he kept catching my attention ok i mean, I saw him everywhere even in the women's section and I was like what was his problem man (?). 

As I browsing through handbag's section , I accidently hit this hijabsistur (that kind of girl that wear hijab with too much effort since I only wear tudung sarung that day 😅) and I said , 'sorry, sorry 😫' and she just nod without even looking at me. 

At the end of the day, as I cross the road with my mom and little brother, I saw the man that I saw earlier behind us. WITH THE HIJABSISTUR GIRL. This world is too small I guess 😬😬 but my little brother did something embarassing as we crossed the road that the car pressed a hon at us and haha, I guess he obviously noticed it and yeah that was that haha 😅😅

Bye. 

Assalamualaikum.

So I quit my job and yesterday was my last day. I feel a little bit sad since we are all like a family but the fact that I dont need to get ready in the morning to go to work, that will cheer me up a bit. 

Im doing nothing much today. All I did was watching a tv, went to an event, buying a baking stuff and more tv.

[caption width="750" id="attachment_626" align="alignnone"] 👻 FatihahRadzi[/caption] Oh ya, Im so scared for tomorrow, will update about tomorrow in the next post. 

See ya ❤️